Holler.

I want to cry my eyes out!


I want to scream because of solitude!


I want to be dead to the world until I finally let this glitch out!


I don't know what to do...


But I need to spill it out sooner or I'll die thinking about it.


Still I'm praying...


Praying that He will let things fall in the right place.


I'm praying hard...


But is it my fault if my tears suddenly fall?


Or is it a crime for me to feel hopeless?


I need faith.


I know I do.


And I'm not to be conquered by this...


I'm believing that He plans something better for me.


Something that I wouldn't have dilemmas at all.


Something that will make me happy...


And please...join me in my prayers


It's tough because I'm fighting emotionally...


But still I'm hoping...


Hoping and praying that things will come just fine...


Huh.

Fieldtrip: Overnight in Baguio

It was a fine 1am friday dawn. All was excited. All was ready. All was on the go to Baguio.

The journey was great...this wasn't my first, but this was far off memorable...

At Sucat, Alo started to share his hot and chilli pancit canton. Gracia and I did the same. I had my burgers, she had her pancit canton and pan de sal with ham.

Reaching NLEX, almost all was snoozing. But the heck was Niccolo! I can hear his Mp3 playing so loud...and worst, it's rock. But damn! I need to sleep. I WANT to sleep. So sleep...sleep...spleep

At 3: 15, we reached Siesta in Tarlac. We stopped for a while. Some peed and others, and that includes me, waited inside the bus. Then Ding commenced saying,

"P$%#@^ I*&^ mo Niccolo (with Nyx outside and as a joke)! Ang lakas ng Mp3 mo!!!"

After 20 minutes refreshment, we left there and we continued to travel. It took me minuted before I commenced my forty winks. Sleep...sleep...

I could have sworn, while sleeping, we were inches from our seats jumping. I opened my eyes to see if that was real and it is. But I continued my deep sleep and I know, we were already there at Baguio.

I felt the urge to see the view. It was dark. It was misty. But, it wasn't scary. I can still feel my eyes aching due to lack of sleep. I tried to close it for once and when I opened it again, the beautiful dark sight was fading bringing the morning lightness.

It was 6: 15 when we stopped at Baguio Cathedral. We had to have mass but Elen, Alo, Chester and I really need to pee badly so we searched for a restroom but the church's CR was still closed. We walked down that high stairs going to the Session Road and found Pizza Volante straight ahead. We are not that idiot no to know that facilities are for costumers only, so Chester bought a hot chocolate.

I can hear myself breathing so fast inside the church. Good thing, it ended so soon. Well, I've experienced my mouth emitting frosty air like in Koreanovelas that made me so excited. But, we were already starving that's why we ate at McDo in Session Rd. Alo and I had a Longganisa Burger, Hashbrown and a hot chocolate...of course, we want a stirrer so we asked for two. But the crew said.

"It's concentrated."

Ahhh. Sorry ha, here in Manila kasi, it's not! Stupid!

But we don't have time for petty quarrels so we just enjoyed.

At past 8am, we reached PMA. we just took poses there (in which I like), then after an hour, we left and went to Camp John Hay. But this wasn't as interesting as this (convo with Irene and me), going there.

Irene said, "Who want's Ritter Sport?"

I replied, "Wow! Ritter Sport!"

"Favorite mo rin yan Sheena?"

(Without the idea of being nambabara) "HINDE!"

My classmated laughed and she said, "Bwisit ka!"

Getting the Ritter Sport Cornfalkes, I said "Mas gusto may raisins"

Next was Ibay's Silver Shop who sells 92.5% silver and the Weaving Factory. When Elen and I finished the tour, Harry or Kagandahan for us (our tour guide) looked at me and said,

"Ni Hao Ma!"

I just nodded and when I'm out of his earshot, I told Elen why. Why did he greet me like that.

"Mukha ka kasing Instik eh"

"Instik ba yun? Parang Vietnamese eh"

And when we got inside the bus, Elen told it to some Simons and the "Ni Hao Ma" ek ek chuva everness spread among Nomis.

Next, we check in Supreme Hotel and we had our lunch.

Chicken, Shrimp and Rice with Soup. The menu that I wasn't glad of.

Reaching our rooms, I opened the TV, and Joei made prank calls to our classmates. We had a great time till it was 2pm and we need to follow our next itinerary which was Botanical Graden. But we have a problem first, we took a bath and changed clothes that's why we are now wearing a coloured shirt which was supposed to be WHITE. But, I DON"T WEAR OTHER WHITES AND I LOVE THE BlACK TOP THAT I'M WEARING so they didn't bother us again.

We were having dilemmas. We don't know if we'll going to buy Peanut Brittles, a bag and other Pasalubong there or in the Minesview or in the Flee Market. But we decided to buy the others in the next itineraries. Instead, we bought key chains and a Bohemian Necklace worth 25 peso because here, it costs 160+.

Next, we had 15 minutes picture taking in The Mansion then off we set to Minesview Market. We bought there Peanut Brittles, Choco Flakes, Choco Mallows, Lengua de Gata and a bag. After an hour shopping and seeking for a better price, we went to The Groto. We have different counts of the stairs. But one thing's sure, it's 250+.

We went back in our Hotel after it and had our dinner. Almost all of us were starving.

Carbonara, Hamonado and Asparagus soup (I'm expecting a BOUILLABAISSE!). This was better than our lunch.

Instead of going to our room, Rm. 303, we went to Rm. 224- Alo, Jonas, Chester and Ding's room. We were having fun inside, eating and laughing. Jonas and Alo even jumped and wrestled over the beds. Prank Calls will never be left and when Alo dialed Mitch's room...he had a surprise...

"Ni hao Ma!"

Alo was then speaking in a fake Chinese...

Then, "P@#^%$ I*&@ mo Alo!"

And we laughed when he told us his reply. We returned in our rooms after a while then while supposedly taking a nap because at midnight, they'll be swimming and we'll wtach Odyssey, Elen and I fell into a deep sleep...a nice, refreshing sleep...until it was 5am.

I could have screamed! We haven't watched the film! The dim light was still on and it was like evening.

We started talking about how we ended up there...and when Irene and Gracia woke up, we turned on the TV and watched Myx Premiere. Irene opened our door wide and she made a full blast volume. We sang "You're Still the One" by Shania Twain but the bellboy interrupted and said,

"Paki hinaan lang po ang TV dahil marami pang guests and natutulog!"

So we did, nut continued "Stay" by Carol Banawa. Then we sang "Unchained Melody" in Spanish Version and we just laughed. We changed the channel in Sky Cable Baguio. It was a viedeoke channel and we sang "Betcha Bye Gollie Wow" (Sorry for the spelling!). But we got apathetic so I changed it to a Chinese Tv Show.

We watched Odyssey while making turns in taking a bath. When we finished, but not the film, they we're all done with their breakfast. But we made it not so late.

Tortang Talong, Beef Steak and Hot Chocolate. The breakfast that suits me fine.

Strawberry Farm- that was after breakfast. We bought strawberries but I regretted not buying lettuce and tomatoes! After the farm we went to Burnham Park but we headed first to have a lunch in SM Baguio, McDonalds. When we came back, via FX we rented a boat and we sailed all the way.

It was 4:20 when we got complete and we headed to Plaza Luisita, Tarlac to have a dinner at Jollibee.

We actually had a movie marathon going home...Chasing Liberty, King Kong and A Walk to Remember. When the latter ended, we were nearing the school. And finally, we were there.

It was such a nice trip.

Something memorable...

Soemthing to be cherished...

And something I'll be missing...

No matter how I want this to last forever, it will never happen because time will always run. But still, this experience I've just had will always be in me.

I will never forget this...

Arrgh...Thesis Proposal!

Yesterday, Friday the Thirteenth, I got home 10 past in the evening. It was because we tried to finish our Thesis Proposal at Anshe. It was actually done except for our sofware's Screen Layout. But it was done. It felt so overwhelming and awesome finishing our Proposal because it's our mean of access towards a "hassle-free" graduation.

When I got home I though I'll be scolded. And thank God because she didn't (my father wasn't home yet).

Thesis Proposal's done! That's what I thought. But heavens! The PC we used was damaged (and if I haven't called Martin, when will I know?)! We didn't save it in a diskettte because a 1.44MB will not fit coupled with our urge to go home.

But lucky we are that our rough draft wasn't in the trash yet or else, back to zero! Or in our Gantt Chart, from 100% down to 0%. Well, there is still HIM who never let us suffered that much. Whew!

It's still a blessing in disguise. If that was our REAL SOFTWARE in Visual Basic, we're dead!

Goodluck for tomorrow groupmates! I told Martin that I can't come because we're out of town. Well, you need not suffer that much!

Thesis

Just got home from Ansherina's. Although our THESIS PROPOSAL's not done yet, we progressed a bit higher. We talked about our screen layout and put into writing our SOFTWARE DESCRIPTION, REASONS FOR THE STUDY and IMPORTANCE OF THE STUDY.

Well, our software is all about COLLEGE COURSES. We will simulate all possible course descriptions, add 'job opportunities' and locate the best universities or colleges for the said course.

We have the college admissions view books, booklets and brochures of DLSU, UP, UST, St. Scho, Ateneo, and still some but we're focusing on all these as a guide.

The deadline of this Proposal will be on Jan. 17 and the DEFENSE willbe on early March I guess.

Hope us the best, huh.

Thanks=)

HAPPY NEW YEAR < My father's back from his 7 day trip so were all happy! And thanks to Tito Alexfor driving our car.The Day Before New Year...Dec. 31, 05We had our breakfast at Jollibee Blue Waves (near MaDocs). I was supposed to have burger but my mom altered it to rice with hotdog and egg. I didn't whined instead devoured because of starvation. After being satisfied with the victual, I flipped the pages of Philippine Star to see that the news I wanted long to hear wasn't up (and kicking) yet. (Hi YG!!)So I turned my attention on my hot chocolate but the taste sucks and I gave it to my brother and sip water instead. When we got home, we just fed Popsicle and Meow, unwind for awhile then we went to buy fruits at SM Southmall. But the lines were exaggeratedly and excessively long for us to join the last minute shoppers having only fruits to buy so we just bought cake and have the fruits and other little things needed purchased outside the mall.It was 2pm when I decided to sleep. When they woke me up at 6:30, the foods were all cooked and dinner was ready. After dinner, we prepared ourselves for the New Year's Mass here at Mary Mother of the Church. Fireworks and Pyrotechnics were already painting the sky when we headed home but, my brother wants to have firecrackers as it was 'tradition' daw, so they bought two something like five star accumulated together to form a long one. At home, they started to light the incense and turn the music on but striking 10pm past, I shut it off and turned the tv on to see Bagong Taon, Bagong Buhay The ABS-CBN News and Current Affairs Yearender Special. After that, I shut it off and turned on the music again then I went to prepare the Table Setting. It was nearing 12am when I decided to go out to watch so many fireworks firing and painting up the dark but starry sky. It was amusing but choking because of the massive air pollution firecrakers had bought. The clock striked 12 and we did some Chinese Traditions. We rolled oranges off and tossed coins and chocolates all over the house. The only thing I forgot is to JUMP. Duh. Our carte du jour for the New Year's Eve was Fettuccine, Valenciana, Fruit Salad, Fiesta Ham and the other ham in which the brand is I dunno, Chocolate Mouse? Chocolate Moose? Can't spell it? Just eat it. CHOCOLATE MOUSSE! We had oranges, fuji apples, honey lemon and chico but we didn't let the chico out because it has black seeds. In our table was also delicacies like Purple Yam Pie or Ube Piaya, Toasted Muffins, Pinasugbu and Barquillos and Barquirons. But our carte du jour was adding passing 12 with 2 kinds of Pancit, Spaghetti, and Buko Salad. Well, it was such a feast and we thank it ALL to HIM who gave us and you such plenty of blessings. And I'm forever (and you too, I know) grateful for all this. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! This year was such a nice one. And this is one of the best years I have. It hurts to say goodbye but I hope the incoming year will be much more better than the previous. I'm happy with it so...THANK YOU 2005! And...Goodbye 2005! Hello 2006!The Day Itself...Jan. 1, 06Our auntie La wants to go here with us but auntie Marlyn and tito Antong (actually, he's our uncle) wants us to have lunch with them. To resolve the conflict of schedule we went there anyway they're all there at Cavite. Auntie La's in Trece and Auntie Marlyn and Tito Antong's in Indang. 1st itinerary: Auntie La's house. We ate cake there eventhough our Chocolate Mousse is still alive. I'm asking for the flavor of the cake but auntie said it was Choco Crumble? Coffee Crumble? Mocha Crumble? But one thing's sure...it's a Great cake that deserves a Red Ribbon. Then they cooked Spaghetti and Valenciana. When the food was ready to be eaten, we drove off together with Kuya John and Auntie La to Indang which was only minutes away from them. We brought some delicacies with us and Auntie La had the Valenciana and a Roll of Goldilocks Mocha cake. But I guess we need not bring them because there were loads of foods there. I'll TRY to name all of them. Spaghetti, tinolang manok, Shrimp, Inihaw na Pusit, Inhihaw na tilapia, Buko Salad, Ube Halaya, ginataan, Puto and fruits. I don't know if I missed something because I just had spag, one pusit, one shrimp and grapes. That's all. After eating, we went out to see their back forest. In the Bahay Kubo we stayed. As the chairs were all occupied, I tried to find one but found none. But I saw that there was a duyan so I revel myself with it aside from laughing and smiling with the stoires they have. I got dizzy after some great and slow pushes so I transfered in the wooden bench. My brother tried they duyan and enjoyed it to the point of lying down while swinging. And when we wrapped him with it he looks like a ham. It was past 3 when we decided to leave. At 4 past, we left auntie La's house then at 5:30 past, we reached auntie Beverly's new house at RoseWood in Bacoor, Cavite. We didn't stayed long there. We arrived home at 6:30 past. Still, the floors with coins, few chocolates and few oranges (we have already eaten most of it) was not yet swept. It will only be now, Jan. 2, that it must be cleaned.And I hope to get the coins for future use in commuting but no luck. It was said to be kept.This start doesn't justify the whole but as I am happy with the rest of the day, I hope the whole year round too. And as I'm becoming lazy right now, I hope that it will only be now not forever because DAMN! I still need to concoct my report about The Odyssey when school starts again!

My father's back from his 7 day trip so were all happy! And thanks to Tito Alexfor driving our car.


The Day Before New Year...Dec. 31, 05

We had our breakfast at Jollibee Blue Waves (near MaDocs). I was supposed to have burger but my mom altered it to rice with hotdog and egg. I didn't whined instead devoured because of starvation. After being satisfied with the victual, I flipped the pages of Philippine Star to see that the news I wanted long to hear wasn't up (and kicking) yet. (Hi YG!!)So I turned my attention on my hot chocolate but the taste sucks and I gave it to my brother and sip water instead.

When we got home, we just fed Popsicle and Meow, unwind for awhile then we went to buy fruits at SM Southmall. But the lines were exaggeratedly and excessively long for us to join the last minute shoppers having only fruits to buy so we just bought cake and have the fruits and other little things needed purchased outside the mall.

It was 2pm when I decided to sleep. When they woke me up at 6:30, the foods were all cooked and dinner was ready. After dinner, we prepared ourselves for the New Year's Mass here at Mary Mother of the Church. Fireworks and Pyrotechnics were already painting the sky when we headed home but, my brother wants to have firecrackers as it was 'tradition' daw, so they bought two something like five star accumulated together to form a long one. At home, they started to light the incense and turn the music on but striking 10pm past, I shut it off and turned the tv on to see Bagong Taon, Bagong Buhay The ABS-CBN News and Current Affairs Yearender Special. After that, I shut it off and turned on the music again then I went to prepare the Table Setting. It was nearing 12am when I decided to go out to watch so many fireworks firing and painting up the dark but starry sky. It was amusing but choking because of the massive air pollution firecrakers had bought.

The clock striked 12 and we did some Chinese Traditions. We rolled oranges off and tossed coins and chocolates all over the house. The only thing I forgot is to JUMP. Duh.

Our carte du jour for the New Year's Eve was Fettuccine, Valenciana, Fruit Salad, Fiesta Ham and the other ham in which the brand is I dunno, Chocolate Mouse? Chocolate Moose? Can't spell it? Just eat it. CHOCOLATE MOUSSE! We had oranges, fuji apples, honey lemon and chico but we didn't let the chico out because it has black seeds. In our table was also delicacies like Purple Yam Pie or Ube Piaya, Toasted Muffins, Pinasugbu and Barquillos and Barquirons. But our carte du jour was adding passing 12 with 2 kinds of Pancit, Spaghetti, and Buko Salad. Well, it was such a feast and we thank it ALL to HIM who gave us and you such plenty of blessings. And I'm forever (and you too, I know) grateful for all this. THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

This year was such a nice one. And this is one of the best years I have. It hurts to say goodbye but I hope the incoming year will be much more better than the previous. I'm happy with it so...THANK YOU 2005! And...

Goodbye 2005! Hello 2006!

The Day Itself...Jan. 1, 06

Our auntie La wants to go here with us but auntie Marlyn and tito Antong (actually, he's our uncle) wants us to have lunch with them. To resolve the conflict of schedule we went there anyway they're all there at Cavite. Auntie La's in Trece and Auntie Marlyn and Tito Antong's in Indang. 1st itinerary: Auntie La's house. We ate cake there eventhough our Chocolate Mousse is still alive. I'm asking for the flavor of the cake but auntie said it was Choco Crumble? Coffee Crumble? Mocha Crumble? But one thing's sure...it's a Great cake that deserves a Red Ribbon. Then they cooked Spaghetti and Valenciana. When the food was ready to be eaten, we drove off together with Kuya John and Auntie La to Indang which was only minutes away from them. We brought some delicacies with us and Auntie La had the Valenciana and a Roll of Goldilocks Mocha cake. But I guess we need not bring them because there were loads of foods there. I'll TRY to name all of them. Spaghetti, tinolang manok, Shrimp, Inihaw na Pusit, Inhihaw na tilapia, Buko Salad, Ube Halaya, ginataan, Puto and fruits. I don't know if I missed something because I just had spag, one pusit, one shrimp and grapes. That's all. After eating, we went out to see their back forest. In the Bahay Kubo we stayed. As the chairs were all occupied, I tried to find one but found none. But I saw that there was a duyan so I revel myself with it aside from laughing and smiling with the stoires they have. I got dizzy after some great and slow pushes so I transfered in the wooden bench. My brother tried they duyan and enjoyed it to the point of lying down while swinging. And when we wrapped him with it he looks like a ham.

It was past 3 when we decided to leave. At 4 past, we left auntie La's house then at 5:30 past, we reached auntie Beverly's new house at RoseWood in Bacoor, Cavite. We didn't stayed long there. We arrived home at 6:30 past.

Still, the floors with coins, few chocolates and few oranges (we have already eaten most of it) was not yet swept. It will only be now, Jan. 2, that it must be cleaned.

And I hope to get the coins for future use in commuting but no luck. It was said to be kept.

This start doesn't justify the whole but as I am happy with the rest of the day, I hope the whole year round too. And as I'm becoming lazy right now, I hope that it will only be now not forever because DAMN! I still need to concoct my report about The Odyssey when school starts again!