Still Floating

I’m really not doing anything. I try to read but I am not as much eager these days. I even try to buy two books last week just so the “wanting “to peruse is there. Not effective.
I don’t know. But I’m still floating. I don’t even feel like going to school soon. Yep, when I’m home I am not productive, but I don’t know. I usually am not like this. Before, I’m really the one who’s eager to come back to school.
I can only do guesswork. Maybe I had too much this sem that I feel like I need to rest more. Funny, but I feel like my battery’s not recharged yet despite the weeks of more than 10 hours of sleep every day. Or maybe, I know that there’s still some more in store for me this coming sem.
Anyway, I still make up my mind. Two more days!

Adieu

I’m saying goodbye to you now. I’m free, at last.
However, before I finally close my door, I want to tell you those things that I abhor about you. Listen, because I’m not gonna come back.
You caused me sleepless nights and I hate that you do that.
You caused me to have lesser time for my family. I’m always there, mind and body.
You placed so many things in my mind that sometimes, I cannot fully grasp.
You made me realize my frailties of which I’m oblivious before.
You made me give so much; time, money, mind and heart.
You made me neglect my other obligations.
You made me short-tempered.
You made me frustrated.
You made me ugly.
You pressured me.
You made me sick.
Nevertheless, I hate it that I’m going to miss you. I must admit, I learned so much. You made me explore in realms that I never touched before. You made me experience things, so many firsts, which I won’t surely forget.
3rd year, 1st semester, goodbye and thank you.
Thank you, despite that you made me realize my limitations, you showed me much still that I can do.
Thank you for bringing me to places, some of which I’ve never been before.
Thank you for making me meet people outside my own world.
Sure thing, I learned so much.
Thank you for making me write so much. I realized that essay is not my only turf.
Thank you for the papers, projects of which on the making, I almost cursed. I realized that for the future, I am prepared.
Thank you for the competitions which we lost but made us proud of other people and of ourselves, still.
Thank you for the criticisms which, I am happy that we proved you wrong.
In your time, I also nearly lost a loved one and permanently lost another. There is so much in you that I’d like to loathe but stalks off and conclude: I am thankful for you.
This has been a fruitful semester। I am proud of all that transpired.

(Posted: Oct 11 in my multiply site)