Thursday, August 09, 2007
On The Brink Of Womanhood
There was a light and the surrounding was dim. There was a woman in dire pain. There were a lot of people surrounding the woman, I was there too. It was cacophonous. The commotion was all about us.
It happened at 12:58 pm exactly 18 years ago in a particular delivery room of Makati Medical Center. I am not really sure about that. I was not able to see then and not even a nibble remains in my head. I do not know anything yet.
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According to Oxford Advanced Learner’s Dictionary, first definition, womanhood is defined as the state of being a woman rather than a girl.
Yes, I’m on the brink of womanhood. Definitely, I am not a girl anymore; however, I do not consider myself as a woman- and all he x- chromosomed humans of my age. I’m in he middle of those two in which the name is I don’t know.
Rather than squeeze my brain or scan dictionaries just to find out what is it called or argue that I am already a woman, here are my pros and cons of being 18- not a girl, not ye a woman. (I don’t mean the Britney song. I don’t simply like her.)
As 18, I am now of legal age as defined by the 1987 Philippine Constitution. I am not too young anymore and I am now “open to all explorations”, in short, res communes- Jessie hangover. More so, I can now be married anytime, anywhere aside from other legal and social freedom (and obligations).
Nevertheless, it was fun being a kid and all. It was fun running while you perspire and still smell like powder. It was fun to eat ice cream like monster and still people will find it cute. I am now also near to that “real world” and it is no fun. It will be sooner that I will be able to experience the complexities in life and those struggles with matching tears like when adults recall it. And the more reason I am kind of fearing this is that, growth stops at 18. This is more of height and if you know me, you know how I’m faring with that. Terrible.
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No usual 18th Birthday party. Yes.
When Grace had hers, I was rather decided to have one too. First, you will have no less than 18 gifts. Second, you will get to see whom you miss.
Story. I can still remember how happy Soya was when she told me that all the varsity- she was one of them- basketball and volleyball players of our batch will come over her debut. Fast forward, when the debut party came, I did not see them. I realized that not everyone could come. Not everyone loves formal parties. Worse, is the bad feeling of not seeing them and the question of why? Although, mama wanted me to have that, even just a simple one. She argued that it happens only once in a woman’s life. However, at the end of the day it is still my decision. I find that kind of party impractical. She agreed.
The solution: I once confided to Mars about what I want in lieu of a party. It was A and B. I chose A and they approved but at the end my parents bought me the B (with me, of course). It was an advanced gift. I had that since last May 5. I am very happy about that and really satisfied but I am having a bargain that after the house renovation that is running right now, they grant me the B. If you would just know what it is, you will agree that it is not a brat thing; even the A is not a brat thing too although, both really costs.
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Who said that when you don’t have a party, you won’t have 18 thingies? I have mine too!
18 Thank Yous
The Divine Providence for giving me this flawed but wonderful life.
Parents and Siblings. For loving me, per se.
Relatives. For helping my parents in bringing me up.
Elementary friends. For a good social foundation.
High school tropa, friends and classmates (St.s Paul of the Cross, Thomas Aquinas, John the Baptist, Simon). You know who you are. Thank you for such a wonderful memory. I cried last Friday when I heard “I Will Be Here”. I miss you all…so much!
College tropa, blockmates, classmates, and campus friends. See you inside school! Hope to get to know you all more. Animo!
Friends and Acquaintances outside school (K2K Yg, JBC). Thank you for the sharing and stories.
Past mentors. I miss you all! And thank you because I never had a hard time with you all. Thanks for the imparted knowledge.
Present mentors. I want 4.00 GPA. Teach me well, I’m paying. Hehehe, just kidding!
Chubby and the rest of the gang. Thank you for being a de-stressor. Meow!
Detractors. (nag iimbento na naman ako!) Keep of the grass! Anyways, the truth will always prevail!
The authors of the books that I have read. You constitute a considerable amount of my knowledge.
My dictionaries and thesaurus. They build up my vocabulary! I am not kidding!
The institutions who built and who is building me (Blesses Mother Mary’s Learning Center (pre-school), Bloomfield Academy (graders), St. Joseph’s Academy (highschool), De La Salle University- Dasmariñas (presently). I learned and am learning so much. Continue to be a heritage!
All the angels and saints. I think I have mentioned all.
The Roman Catholic Church. Just to fill us the 18.
All the Filipino Citizens.
Angus. Yes, my brain. You fill in the last.
That was general because I don’t want to miss a name.
World Peace, thank you and Philippine peace and stability.
My letter B!
To be able to speak fluently in French
…to visit China where my mother’s root ancestors are or were, I don’t know, as well as Amanpulo, France, Japan, Italy and Greece.
…have all my wanted books be bought and have m own library of literary works.
…meet Korina Sanchez, handa na ba ako?
…make a difference in our goddam society. Seriously.
…pursue Master of Arts after graduation and continue Law or Doctoral degree.
…reach 5’4” height.
…build better relationship especially among my blockmates.
Laptop and $100,000 shopping spree! Wooh!
…that my siblings won’t be triggered by asthma again. I hate it when my cats are subjected to leave. Good thing they are still here, though.
…be in dean’s list. Honestly.
…a DJ of La Salle Radio as a training. Hope it admits soon. Irish!!!
…to say incantations and perform magic!
…write a best- selling- err- essay. Lolz, since I don’t have the flair of a storyteller.
…be a broadcaster!
I wish that all my wishes will come true.
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Wait! There is still more!
Pictures to be posted…soon.
Disclaimer: I won’t be able to treat all. Sorry! Peace!
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|Ma. Veronica Sheena Valencia de Gonzales y Tan de Prieto. That is the FULLEST of my name, no less. Unless I'd
be indolent to write, then that will be Sheena Valencia, and that's how my name goes in school, everywhere!...Sinking in historically, I was born by the date of July 28 and I'm 16. It
was Makati Medical Center who witnessed the 1st sign of my breathing. Now I'm here in flesh at Las Piñas to continue the journey of my life. It's not perfect...but it's great!
I love writing. Although I must admit that I'm not that splendid. I love blogging, chatting, reading- and I don't mean textbooks-
speaking- or if you mean orating, well fine!- and sleeping! (Well, actually all of these and more are written down there , so I need not elaborate.) Aesthetically, I'm pretty fine as well as emotionally. Now, sinking in personally. I'm erratic and
aggressive but patient. I'm a comic and I love to laugh but I have exceptions. I'm driven by moods of others but I always try not to be. I want justice incessantly but I must admit that sometimes I'm biased. I'm naughty but I know how to follow. If I seem to be dark and sinister...don't be anxious...there are tons (and majority) of my being is angelic.
Currently, I'm a senior- and my height doesn't say so!- highschool student of St. Joseph's Academy and I'm enjoying it! Soooo much! It's superb! There are fuss and flaws but really, it's Supercalifragilistic Expialidocious! BUT on the looming AY to come, I will be
in college! Burden is- I don't want to leave SJA so soon! Can I (and we) just repeat? *scowls
(Inserted: Aug. 12, 06)But...that current up there is archaic because at this point, I'm already in college at De La Salle University- Dasmariñas. Meaning, the dream of repeating will just be a dream and will never come true because I'm already here. And I must enjoy what I have because there will be no turning back since I have decided to say everytime I fall, "Standout Josephian!" What a smile it brings me...
...I go by...
Cinderella- the name my parents and relatives used to call me when I was small.
Cindy- shortcut of Cinderella.
Sheena- yeah, my hackneyed name!
Sheng- short from Sheena
Veronica- no one calls me like this at present
Chinggay- the name given to me by my childhood bestfriend
LavenderCrunch- my code name made by myself in our tropa!
Sheens- what some of my Josephian classmates call me
Ganda- what a reaction! This is what they used to call me at first in the store.
Ate- yup. Another calling in the store.
SheenaTots- I don't know why...WHY?
SheenaBebe- because I'm the only sixteen, I guess, in the store.
Website: Sheena's Site
Other Blogs: StSimon
Multiply: Sheena's Multiply
Yahoo!Mail and Messenger: email@example.com
ProBoard: K2K's Proboard
K2K YG: UrL's off the record! *smirks
...that may or may NOT describe me...
Check On It
[Carla Fe's Blog]
[M & K News]
Learning Java Scripts-not making them!
History, English and Science class (the least would be Physics)
Malling (to shop is understood!)
Memorizations than Aritmetic
Sound and Food Trippin'
Eating Sashimi, Siomai, Chicken Macaroni Salad, Lasagna, Carbonara!
Feasting over chocolates!
Playing at the counter
And, well everything that goes with stars.
Math (including Arithmetic and Algebra!)- that's the superlative!
Proving- who likes that anyways
Tupperwares- and I mean a human being
Supercalifragilistic Expialidocious Liars
Zim- in Invader Zim
Dora- in the Dora the Explorer!
I fancy having an eidetic memory=P!
Reformating a computer!
Ben Affleck and etc.
Sam- in Totally Spies
Ginger- in as told by Ginger
Patrick- in Spongebob SquarePants
Barracuda- see, I don't hate her!!
Seeing all my YG friends
Seeing K- in my dreams!
Bringing back the time
Having a completer Reunion
Succeding in my field, hahaha
And I fancy the way I am!
as of 12/14/06
Post: My First La Sallian Recollection
Expression: Ho Ho Ho!
Reads: Scarlet Letter
Scent: Raspberry Crush
Mood: Ehem Hem
State: Aching Stomach
as of 12/14/06
Food: Chocolate Marjolaine
Books: Five People You Meet In Heaven
Movie: The Devil Wears Prada
Song: Too Little, Too Late
In Philippine Peso, naturally
Exposure Trip: 530
ABCom Shirt: 200 something!
Dec.11, 12,13: Prelims
Jan. 3, 2007: Resuming of Classes
Jan. 9: Exposure Trip: ABS- CBN and Mowell Fund
Tell me anything!
Microsoft Front Page=)
Corel PhotoPaint Ver. 11
Carla Fe- for sharing your familiarity in div
Glitter Your Way
Kace- for the Haloscan info.
Patty-for having her company during my first attempt
and...to myself (for enduring those devilish and dismal nights!)
Cheers...to those who made my life beautiful.
Everything happens for a reason.