Thursday, December 20, 2007
Like a Mona Lisa Smile
“She is smiling. Is she happy?”
-Betty Warren in Mona Lisa Smile
I am trying to put a brave face amidst this problem that has been disturbing me for a week. Along with it, I’m struggling to surpass this alone. It is not for anything else that I am keeping it. It is in many instances that I was tempted to tell mama and close friends about this. It is hard to keep something within and still smile when situations call for it. However, I kept myself from disclosing it. If there was someone whom I tried to confide and cry this out, it was Him.
I prayed unceasingly for a solution that I see fit to solve it. My parents taught me that when you pray, do it with utmost confidence. I admit, even to Him, that it was hard for me not to feel doubtful. It is like walking in the thin air. You are buoyant but you do not see what is keeping you up.
I was not led in the way that I prayed it to be. But it doesn’t mean that I’m ruined. The way He thinks is unfathomable and I don’t have any right to question His wisdom for leading me here. I know, He is testing the little faith that I have. I am not strong. I am still learning to praise Him in spite of pain, to thank Him during trial, to trust Him when lost and to surrender while suffering. Maybe this is the reason why I tried to cry but not a drop fell.
I am smiling despite the pain, but I can say, I am happy.
|Ma. Veronica Sheena Valencia de Gonzales y Tan de Prieto. That is the FULLEST of my name, no less. Unless I'd
be indolent to write, then that will be Sheena Valencia, and that's how my name goes in school, everywhere!...Sinking in historically, I was born by the date of July 28 and I'm 16. It
was Makati Medical Center who witnessed the 1st sign of my breathing. Now I'm here in flesh at Las Piñas to continue the journey of my life. It's not perfect...but it's great!
I love writing. Although I must admit that I'm not that splendid. I love blogging, chatting, reading- and I don't mean textbooks-
speaking- or if you mean orating, well fine!- and sleeping! (Well, actually all of these and more are written down there , so I need not elaborate.) Aesthetically, I'm pretty fine as well as emotionally. Now, sinking in personally. I'm erratic and
aggressive but patient. I'm a comic and I love to laugh but I have exceptions. I'm driven by moods of others but I always try not to be. I want justice incessantly but I must admit that sometimes I'm biased. I'm naughty but I know how to follow. If I seem to be dark and sinister...don't be anxious...there are tons (and majority) of my being is angelic.
Currently, I'm a senior- and my height doesn't say so!- highschool student of St. Joseph's Academy and I'm enjoying it! Soooo much! It's superb! There are fuss and flaws but really, it's Supercalifragilistic Expialidocious! BUT on the looming AY to come, I will be
in college! Burden is- I don't want to leave SJA so soon! Can I (and we) just repeat? *scowls
(Inserted: Aug. 12, 06)But...that current up there is archaic because at this point, I'm already in college at De La Salle University- Dasmariñas. Meaning, the dream of repeating will just be a dream and will never come true because I'm already here. And I must enjoy what I have because there will be no turning back since I have decided to say everytime I fall, "Standout Josephian!" What a smile it brings me...
...I go by...
Cinderella- the name my parents and relatives used to call me when I was small.
Cindy- shortcut of Cinderella.
Sheena- yeah, my hackneyed name!
Sheng- short from Sheena
Veronica- no one calls me like this at present
Chinggay- the name given to me by my childhood bestfriend
LavenderCrunch- my code name made by myself in our tropa!
Sheens- what some of my Josephian classmates call me
Ganda- what a reaction! This is what they used to call me at first in the store.
Ate- yup. Another calling in the store.
SheenaTots- I don't know why...WHY?
SheenaBebe- because I'm the only sixteen, I guess, in the store.
Website: Sheena's Site
Other Blogs: StSimon
Multiply: Sheena's Multiply
Yahoo!Mail and Messenger: firstname.lastname@example.org
ProBoard: K2K's Proboard
K2K YG: UrL's off the record! *smirks
...that may or may NOT describe me...
Check On It
[Carla Fe's Blog]
[M & K News]
Learning Java Scripts-not making them!
History, English and Science class (the least would be Physics)
Malling (to shop is understood!)
Memorizations than Aritmetic
Sound and Food Trippin'
Eating Sashimi, Siomai, Chicken Macaroni Salad, Lasagna, Carbonara!
Feasting over chocolates!
Playing at the counter
And, well everything that goes with stars.
Math (including Arithmetic and Algebra!)- that's the superlative!
Proving- who likes that anyways
Tupperwares- and I mean a human being
Supercalifragilistic Expialidocious Liars
Zim- in Invader Zim
Dora- in the Dora the Explorer!
I fancy having an eidetic memory=P!
Reformating a computer!
Ben Affleck and etc.
Sam- in Totally Spies
Ginger- in as told by Ginger
Patrick- in Spongebob SquarePants
Barracuda- see, I don't hate her!!
Seeing all my YG friends
Seeing K- in my dreams!
Bringing back the time
Having a completer Reunion
Succeding in my field, hahaha
And I fancy the way I am!
as of 12/14/06
Post: My First La Sallian Recollection
Expression: Ho Ho Ho!
Reads: Scarlet Letter
Scent: Raspberry Crush
Mood: Ehem Hem
State: Aching Stomach
as of 12/14/06
Food: Chocolate Marjolaine
Books: Five People You Meet In Heaven
Movie: The Devil Wears Prada
Song: Too Little, Too Late
In Philippine Peso, naturally
Exposure Trip: 530
ABCom Shirt: 200 something!
Dec.11, 12,13: Prelims
Jan. 3, 2007: Resuming of Classes
Jan. 9: Exposure Trip: ABS- CBN and Mowell Fund
Tell me anything!
Microsoft Front Page=)
Corel PhotoPaint Ver. 11
Carla Fe- for sharing your familiarity in div
Glitter Your Way
Kace- for the Haloscan info.
Patty-for having her company during my first attempt
and...to myself (for enduring those devilish and dismal nights!)
Cheers...to those who made my life beautiful.
Everything happens for a reason.